[Journal] Something something Christmas

Oh Christmas Tree,
Oh Christmas Tree,
How do you give anxiety? ~

For most people, Christmas day is amazing. Presents, food, family (and usually ranked in that order) mean a pretty awesome day. For people with mental health issues – depression, anxiety and PTSD just to name a few – today can be a living hell. The social expectations are hard at this time of the year. There seem to be “unwritten rules” for what you should and shouldn’t do, and if you don’t follow them, you’ve ruined Christmas.

(Note: I had started this list as being a lot more serious, but decided halfway through that it wasn’t really helping my outlook on today, so I changed it up a little)

● Be merry. Be stupidly positive, in fact. Don’t even consider talking about things that impact you on this, the happiest day of the year. God hates that.

● Visit family! All of them at once! Be a time traveler and cross space and time itself or else you’re a horrid person that would rather see your mother eaten by bilge rats!

● Bring presents! Oh god, the children will cry and wail and be scarred for life if you don’t put another sacrifice on their towering pile. They will, in fact, eat you if you don’t.

● Bring food! The worse it is for everyone, the better! (Where do pineapples and marshmallows get off being in a ‘salad’ anyway?)

● Sing awful songs that hail the fat man and his feral beasts, enjoy the crooning of the Booblies as he sings you into your post – food comatose.

● Appreciate your family! Yes, even your batshit auntie Helen. The one that gift wraps old doilies in cat hair and always smells faintly of fish.

● Appreciate every gift! Yes, even the aforementioned doilies. You ungrateful bastard, you.

● Come home exhausted and swear to never do that again, but know full well you have to do it again next year.

I’ve been fairly quiet this time of the year. Things have been a little rough on my end and I’ve struggled with a bad pain flare on top of the confusing emotions surrounding Christmas itself, so finding the energy to write up a post or draw a comic was hard. Still, before the silly season is out I wanted to leave a message for everyone that gets a chance to read my blog.

Thank you for following my madcap rambling this year. Thank you for all the love and support through the downs and for sharing the laughs through the ups. Whatever physical state you’re in, whatever seasonal celebration you’re sharing, I sincerely hope it’s a good one. If that means being at a family event, awesome. If you just want to be at home on the PC, that’s awesome too. Thank you for the fun and we’ll see you all in 2015!


2 thoughts on “[Journal] Something something Christmas

  1. Thank you for allowing me to read along this year, Abi. It has been a privilege. 😀 (And, yeah, Christmas isn’t always a great time of year for me either, so thank you for acknowledging that it’s not all flowers and chocolates for everybody.)

    • It’s been an absolute pleasure. For reference this entry wasn’t directly aimed at anyone we saw over the last few days, just a combinations of worries, past experiences and general nonsense. Basically a lot of the stuff that gets overlooked by people that aren’t up against their own bodies being butt holes as well as all the stress of thr Silly Season. For what it’s worth, I hope you had a relaxing Christmas and got a chance to veg out for a bit and do something you enjoy 🙂

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